the klog

Dream just now: I was hanging out with a bunch of people playing a video game where they set off a bunch of bombs to make big explosions. But then the video game world and the real world became blurred, as per dream logic. When they were going to try it again, someone wondered if it would be safe. "My landlord said it'd be fine as long as we didn't make the explosions too big. But whatever. It'll be fine..."

So guess what? The explosion was too big. We were all under some kind of big metal tower structure with a latticework of beams and stuff, and the whole tower started collapsing to one side. I ran, but I could see that the tower was going to collapse on me.

All I had time to think was, "So this is the end of my life." And at the back of my mind, I wondered what my final thoughts would be and then realized that this was it. I didn't feel any terrifying, paralyzing fear, just a calm sense of disappointment.

I slid to the ground, and the tower fell all around me, but I managed to fit into a gap between beams. I was still alive! "Whew," I thought. "I survived. I'm not even in pain. I guess I just need to wait for the rescuers to arrive."

And then I woke up.

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I think I'm kinda disappointed at how uninteresting my presumed final thoughts were. People say their life flashes before their eyes before their eyes, and so forth, but my guess is that most people probably think totally banal thoughts for their last moments before an accident kills them.

Also, what the fuck, man?!! Why did I have such a messed up dream?!?! I mean, dude! I thought I was gonna die! That was messed up! :P

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P.S.: I think the dream just means I've been playing too much Halo. :P The whole explosions thing comes from the Halo games, where you can stack grenades to see how far you can blow your jeep. And in Halo 3, there's a saved film feature where you can replay the events from your game.

In the dream, actually, we were first viewing some previous explosions on replay, and someone complained that the reply wasn't quite the same as the original explosion, that the original explosion was bigger. That's why we were going to try it again. I left that out of the main text to simplify it.